Familia Cedeño

I absolutely LOVE living in Daybreak. Since the very first Sunday that we went to our new ward and met a family called the Broadbent family, we have felt so at home and we consider ourselves very lucky to be here. The first few nights and mornings I would wake up and think...is this really my house? It felt so good I had to remind myself that the brand new, beautiful, large home that I was living in was actually mine. As I promised, here are photos of our new home: I am very grateful and I am happy to say that after very, very, very hard times come the very, very, very good times. 

We had another great day together as a family here in the beautiful community of Daybreak. The weather makes us want to go outside and play a lot. We are grateful for Roberto's flexible work schedule and his availability to take us out and spend time with us. I feel like we are starting from the beginning again. I was telling my mom this afternoon, that instead of feeling like I should be celebrating Abram's first birthday, it feels like it has been two or more years that have past, because of all of the illness, both physical and mental that I have experienced in the past year. Honestly, though, going through all of the pain and suffering and testing and trial of our love and relationship, has made it mean that much more to us and has given me a more firm testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ and of my eternal marriage and partnership with Roberto, the love of my life. I am so grateful for modern medicine, for psychiatrists and for technology. I want to take a min...

Hey there ... So, I am still going to the library to write because we have no internet in the house. I think I can finally understand to some degree what I have experienced in the past twelve months. Since the birth of my son, I have experienced depression, anxiety and then mania and lots more of anxiety in the extreme of every emotion I have encountered, which is why I was labeled bipolar in the mental hospital. I still don't know if that is the exact term that I would use for what I have gone through. Considering my son is still a little baby who has two months left until his first birthday, I think what I have gone through is called Postpartum Psychosis. I just watched a documentary on YouTube about this, this morning, and I am pretty sure that I can say this is the label. Women who have extreme thoughts of killing themselves or their baby after the birth of the baby. I really didn't think of killing myself but I was doing things that were putting myself into...

Well... here it goes...the ugly post I really didn't want to do this but I just have to say.... What an embarrassment I was during my manic episodes... I can't believe I actually believed that I was pregnant with twins and I posted about it on social media as if it was real.... I apologize right now to anyone that I may have hurt unintentionally. I was not in my right mind and I had absolutely no control over my actions. I still don't know if I am clinically bipolar or if was just situational since I completely hallucinated everything and my body believed it and so I had the belly.... It is a little confusing to me, but since I have discovered my food sensitivities, it makes more sense now why I was so bloated, but I think it was more my mind over my body. Again, I am sorry for what I did when I was psychotic. It was fun while it lasted. Now...... onto real life.

Hey! So this post goes out to everyone who has ever felt bloated and sick to their stomachs.... Yeah, doesn't sound so appetizing I know, but, I will continue to share with you why I said the V word. I am twenty eight years old. I was diagnosed with Addison's disease at the age of 25 and now.... I get sick every time I eat meat, dairy or gluten. WHAT THE BLEEP?! I am very frustrated to say the least. I am ready to start this new venture and I will definitely share with you my recipes and my fails. I will be using Pinterest as my guide and I really hope that this means I will be feeling better soon. Till next time...

I can't believe I can finally say that we are DONE moving! I am relieved and just very happy to start this new chapter of our lives in Daybreak. I just can't get over the fact that I have lived in Salt Lake for more than ten years and I have never ever been in Daybreak until now. I have driven past Daybreak before, but I did not have the chance to get out and walk around these beautiful homes and parks. It really feels like you are not in Utah anymore and it is so much fun. Roberto and I have decided that we will stay in Salt Lake until we have a very very good reason to leave. This place is great and we have the convenience of being able to travel to other destinations once it gets cold again and we get depressed all over again with the fact that we have to deal with snow. The boys are going to love growing up in this neighborhood and I am very happy that Heavenly Father has allowed us to have this new beginning. Now I get to pick themes and decorate bedrooms and pi...

We are now living in our brand new home in Daybreak and it is so beautiful. I can't post photos right now, but as soon as I get the chance I will do so. We are loving the neighborhood and the surrounding parks and trails. I love being in this community and the exact location of our home. We live on a corner and on the top of a hill, so we have a gorgeous view of the mountains and of the Oquirrh Mountain temple. Sharkboy is so very excited to be in this new house. We have already begun to do his room by getting him a brand new bed and some furniture from IKEA. We also got a vanity for our master bedroom and it is gorgeous. We are happy to report that most of our belongings are now in our house. There is little left to remove from the garage in our old home. I can't believe we actually did it and we are moved!!! Now comes the fun part.... shopping for appliances :)

Today was a lot of fun. I was out all day with the kids. We started the day with the library and then went to a mall. Sharkboy wanted to go to the Disney store, so we went and they happened to be celebrating the 40th anniversary of Star Wars. They gave us a button pin and some trading cards!! We were so surprised! We decided to go to grandma's house for lunch and it was a great choice. We were able to play with cousins and enjoy some chicken. I gathered many of our belongings from when my mother in law was caring for me during my manic episodes. I am happy to report that we are very ready to pack up the moving van tomorrow and be on our way to Daybreak! We ended the day with some time at the family park near our home in Kearns and had breakfast for dinner. It was very delicious. House number one.... you did good. P.S. Sharkboy lost his first tooth tonight:)

Well, yesterday was a great day because........ OUR LOAN was APPROVED!!!! To say we are excited doesn't even cover how happy we are that we are moving to Daybreak. Now comes the fun part........ moving. To be continued.....

Hey there... It's another beautiful spring day in the month of May and I am so happy to be alive and out with my two boys. We are spending another great morning at the library and we are excited to look at books and other great things. I am very happy to be blogging and it feels good to be me. Today is laundry day. We get to have fresh, clean clothes to wear, YAY! I look forward to laundry day because it means a brand new wardrobe and clothing items to choose from. I also like today because we get to be that much closer to closing on our home in Daybreak and I am so, so, very happy about that new house! I will most definitely take photos once we are moved in and settled. We are hoping to close this Wednesday and I am SO excited! Well, that's about it! I am going to go explore this library and I will see you later! Have a marvelous week!

Hey! So I just HAVE to post about this because I FINALLY DID IT! I have a pixie cut. HOORAY! I really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, LOVE my pixie. For years, I have been wanting to do this to my hair and I finally was crazy enough and brave to do it and here's the kicker........ I CUT IT MYSELF. The very best part about having hair this short is the maintenance. THERE IS NONE!!!!  I wake up, I run my fingers through my hair and I am DONE.  If I go to bed with it wet, then I have to comb it wet again...but really, that is IT! IF, IF, IF... I was a single woman and no attachment or relationship to a man, this would be it my friends, I would not go back unless my shoulders can't brave the cold without my locks. I really do love this haircut so much I could just kiss a boy to keep it this way forever.  But, alas....there is a boy in my life and he LOVES LONG HAIR. So.... Growing ...

Today was a very special day for Roberto's side of the family. We had a baptism of our oldest nephew, Dante. We gathered in a chapel located in east salt lake and we all had a part to play in helping out the family on this momentous occasion. Several family members gave talks and taught us about the principles and ordinances of the gospel of Jesus Christ. We know that Jesus Christ was baptized even though he was perfect and he gave us the ultimate example of love and sacrifice. I felt very humbled, as I saw my Nephew, a pure boy, take upon himself the name of Jesus Christ and make promises to God. I know that he is on the path back to heaven and that we can all return to the presence of our Heavenly Father, if we stay on the correct path and follow the commandments. I felt so much love from God for my little family. I know that God loves me and that we have been sent to earth for just a small moment and that our family is the most precious gift that we have been given. We m...

Hey there! So I write again from the public library here in good old Salt Lake City. Things have been winding down and I feel much, much more like normal again. I feel as if I should write a book. How to feel like yourself, after realizing you are just NOT normal. So, if you haven't caught on just yet....I am bipolar. What does this mean for you? Not much really.... just that I get to write lots more entries on here and I get to open up a little more about my struggles in the daily life. Being a mom has always been my glory. I love it and I rock it  hard. What's the hard part now? Being Jessica... being the REAL Jessica and not pretending anymore. Not pretending that life is a piece of cake or a walk in the park, because, let's face it, we don't know how to deal. We just act like we do and we keep on faking it until we make it because, what else is there? So....what now? Well, I have quite a few things lined up for me. #1 Teaching YES! I am ...

Hello! We have been living in our current property in Utah for about four years and after all of the severe life changes we have been through this past year, we are ready for a new change in the scenery. We are looking to rent this property and retain it as our own and it has been quite the feat. So we have been sleeping over at our house while we show it to future clients and hoping and praying that someone will want to rent it out very soon. The sooner we can do this, the sooner we can move into a new home!! The new house is gorgeous and very much like our dream house and we are very, very excited about this new move! In the meantime, we are playing fix it up and handyman with this house while we get ready to move into the nice, brand new one in Daybreak! YAY! Can't get enough Mario Kart!!

Hi! So.... We are back to a daily routine of family life... Laundry Meals Family time Temple Church Travel It actually feels really nice! Today, Shark boy got his library card. I am so excited for him!

Shark boy 6 years old Hello! I am so happy to report that Roberto has made it another year by my side! :D It was so great to be together and be our own family. Now that I am well aware of my bipolar mental block, it is good for me to write down my feelings even more and document my family's progress. We started the day together at a his mother's house and then we went back home to finish packing some things. We had lunch and it was glorious. On Sunday we gathered with the family it was a zoo, in a the best possible way though. Bluffdale is where Raquel has her town home and it is brand new it is just a little claustrophobic. Baby A nine months old 

We have been moving back and forth from house to house and it has been exhausting. I finally get to relax a little and celebrate with my own family that we have survived the past two months of brutality from my bipolar issues. We are doing our best to retain our three properties and rent out the house we currently live in so that we can move into daybreak which is so incredibly beautiful. Today we gathered the family together to celebrate Roberto's birthday which is tomorrow, on a Monday the 8th. Mother's day is just around the corner and we are getting antsy. I really want to spend time with my mom and my friends and really feel like I am back to real life again. Right now, Roberto and I enjoy walking together with the boys. We really like this time together and hope it lasts forever. Sharkboy and friend at a youth dance after the party was over 

For the past two months, March and April , I have suffered every emotion to the extreme. Happiness Excitement Lust Anger Confusion Anxiety Love Fear Disgust Envy Jealousy Malice Irritability Dissatisfied Discontent The Jessica I have known my entire life is no longer here. She was quiet, introverted, needed God's approval and the approval of every person, very decisive, very obedient, lover of music, song, dance, compassionate, caring, loving, great with children, patient, long suffering, passive, honesty and now.... I have to speak up. How can I not tell you how I feel? That would be dishonest. My voice is my trigger. It is my beacon. It is my lighthouse. I have to speak. God gave me my voice so that I could share goodness with everyone I come I contact with. To remain silent would be complete and utter betrayal. To myself, to God and to everyone I love. To sing, is to be completely free. I absolutely must release these emotions throug...